Saturday 29 December 2007


I'm using these last few days of 2007 to prepare for my fightback.I have decided to throw down the gauntlet, stop pussy footing around and get some runs on the board again with the weightloss. I have eaten way to much over Xmas and it's time to STOP.

Watch this space sports fans!

Monday 24 December 2007


Sunday 23 December 2007


I was looking at some old photos and have handpicked some taken over the years which are my favourites.

My all time favourite of my two brothers and I. I always get a laugh when I look at this photo. As was usual back then it was a stinking hot day and we were about to get under the water sprinklers.

I think I was about 3 in this photo. I know this because I was diagnosed with Juvenile Arthritis at 3 and if you look at the middle finger on my left hand you will notice how swollen it is as that's where it all started.

Still sitting on Santa's knee with some school friends at 18. I think we certainly made this Santa's day. I distinctly remember him having a bit of a feel!! lol!!

Taken on Christmas Day on my mothers front lawn, My daughter was three, isn't she a cutie. (I'm biased of course!)

My previous dog, Page who has now passed. I used to put this hat on him every Christmas and take him with me when handing out the neighbours gifts. Such a beautiful dog, had such a placid temperament. Very quiet and content to sit at my feet, unlike the Master of Disaster I have now. Fat chance of me even getting that hat remotely near my current dog, Oscar!

Wednesday 19 December 2007


Well my family gathering went well, a good time was had by all.It was a little disappointing the day was overcast and rained, but at least it was not stinking hot.

Here's a piece of useless trivia I learnt from my Aunty. We have a beach named after my family in New Zealand. My maternal grandfather (from Scottish parents) was born in NZ. Seems the family were early settlers in the area. We still have relatives in NZ with my grandads cousin who is 98 (god bless her) still alive. I would really like to meet her.

I stuck to my plan and had what I wanted, which really was not a great deal,but unfortunately the scales did not think so and I faced an upward movement of 2 kilos of which I have already dropped 1 kg. It really makes you think is it worth the hassle of breaking the diet. I mean it takes a good 3-4 weeks for me to drop that weight but only 1 freaking day to bung it back all on - really pisses me off.

I suppose I have to add in all the "tastings" I'm doing as well. I've been baking things like White Chocolate and Macadamia cookies, Rocky Road (orgasmic!! - lol) and Fruit Mince Pies, so I have to admit sampling all of them.

We'll have to see how I handle my next "bust out" day.

Today I spent 12 hours at work doing all the Xmas wages, boy what a day could almost turn me to the drink. I'm keeping my fingers crossed all are correct.Two more days to go then 2 weeks off - yippee!!!!

Friday 14 December 2007


Start tapping your toes while you listen top this blast from thr past


Do you all remember that disco hit, if I can find it on you tube I will download it for you. The tune is going over and over in my head as I type this. I am so glad I have two days off the regroup and start work at my "second" job - home.

Weighed in today had a small loss from my last weight .800grams (1.76 lbs), it has been a hard slog I might add as I have been extremely diligent over the past few weeks. I've got my first challenge coming up on Sunday - our extended family Xmas luncheon, where I plan to have what I want and not think about the diet.

Hope everyone has a great weekend and I'll give you a run down how I went next week.

As we say here in Australia - "keep 'em together"!

Monday 10 December 2007

The Plan

I've been thinking alot about how I'm going to tackle the silly season food wise this year.

Last year I used it as an excuse the eat anything that wasn't nailed down to make up for the feelings of deprivation I felt. After my pig out I found it extremely hard to get back into the swing of things and really when I think about it I didn't recover from the binge.

If I went back and counted up the kilo's I have lost in 2007 it would probably be around the 15 maybe even 20 kilo mark. Only problem is I have lost, then gained,lost then gained. I think I used the term "piss farting around" a couple posts ago which was apt. I have wasted time and opportunity this year for which I have no one to blame but myself and take full responsibility for.

Over the past few weeks, I have been good,very good I must say with the food. I have had some tough battles with chocolate,ice cream etc and have won most of them, so I am proud of myself for that.Where I have not been good is on the exercise front. I need to get back to the gym again, I know I have to do it but just cant seem to muster the motivation to "just do it". I don't know why I'm struggling with this as I know fully well I will feel better once I get back into it.

This Xmas I have tabled 3 days where I am going to relax the diet and have what I want (without having to be rolled away from the table!!)

1. Dec 16th - Lunch only. This is the annual family get together on my mothers side.
Theres so many of us we hire a hall and self cater it.
2. Dec 24th - Evening only, we celebrate with my sister in law and her kids and she always bakes scrummy shortbread and rocky road to die for!
3. Dec 25th - Xmas Day - All Day.

So that's the plan, it may seem a bit simplistic to you, but it has eased my anxiety as I do not want a repeat performance of last year.

2008 is going to be a slimmer year for me - no excuses!!!

Friday 7 December 2007


Tonight my daughter Alexandra is off to her school formal. We have spent the day going to the hairdressers where she had her hair coloured and cut and then to the beautician's who did her makeup for her.

She was very excited and I must say looked lovely in her new outfit, it brought a tear to my eye. As she is in year 10 this is really a practise run for the major one which will take place at the end of her senior year in 2009.

It's times like these when you wonder where did all the years go.

Thursday 6 December 2007


Yes, you are reading this correctly, the 2nd post in 2 days, must be a record. lol!

I'm trying to take my mind of food. I've got one of my "headaches", you know the ones where you what to eat anything and everything, particularly sweet and sugary. I am feeling a little desperate and have been scouring the cupboards. I've even contemplated opening up the cooking chocolate I've got that's how desperate I feel.

I will do my best to abstain as I know after I have scoffed it down, I will feel worse than I do now.

I'm posting a photo of my dog Oscar, it's his way of telling me he wants to play ball, pleading me with those googly eyes of his. I reckon he's taking his life in his own hands or paws I should say, sticking his head there, with the risk of getting lost in the vortex!!! ha ha ha

He's cute, the last photo looks like a promotional shot, you know the ones actors have at their agencies. Don't you just love the paw on my foot.

I'm off now, going to make myself a cup of tea - Twinings! Yes please.

Wednesday 5 December 2007


Yesterday was the sentencing hearing for my brothers workplace fatality in relation to his employers, as they put in a guilty plea. My husband and I took my parents into the city. As they had pleaded guilty I thought we would have some closure on this. I was mistaken, we sat through two hours of deliberation from both the defense and the prosecution. The defense offered up all these reasons why the judge should be lenient in his decision, of how they paid for and attended the funeral, of them only being a small family business and even trying to wrangle out of their duty of care in relation to adequate training, by saying they only employed people with learning difficulties and that is why they only gave verbal training and not written training. What a crock of shit! The latter really upset us all, as it was implied my brother was illiterate. Yeah they contributed to the part of the funeral expenses and only after I spoke to them about it.So after all that, we have to wait for the judges decision which we were told may be by February next year, or he may wait until the trial is over for the manufacturers of the machine which starts in Feb 08.

I have taken the week off work as I did not know how long this was going to take, also because I feel so tired out I didn't think I could last until the Chrustmas holidays. Christmas is really such an anti climax these days, for the last couple of years I just seems to come and go in the blink of an eye.

Today I spent the day spring cleaning and putting up the Christmas tree and decorations. It's a job I hate the thought of but something well worth the effort as I really love my tree.