Saturday 6 November 2010


Well I kept to my promise of updating regularly didn't I - NOT !

I think the black dog has something to do with how my life is at the moment - no purpose and all over the place.I just can't seem to get things done they just drag on and on and I spend hours doing stuff but on the surface looks like I've done nothing. I hate it when I'm like that absolutely HATE IT !

Last time I posted I told you about my workplace injury. The pelvic fracture is getting better but the hip issue is not improving at all. To make matters worse the insurance company have declined my case which really devastated me. So now I have to get a lawyer and go through the motions of appealing which is going to be a right pain in the arse.

Oh and I sacked my Doctor, the one I had been going to for over 26 years - just fed up with his complacency and also the fact he misdiagnosed two major things this year, a bit sad really as he did his residency the same time and at the same hospital I did my nursing training.

Work is also a problem I think they are trying to give me the shove as within 30 minute of being told my case was declined I get hauled into the office and told I take too much leave and am away from work FAR two much, and I should cut down on my annual leave and long service leave.Hmmmm they have to authorise this leave before I take it so if it is a problem why do they sign off on the form and if I am entitled to the leave I should be able to take it when I freaking well want to.

Mind you they told me this 3 days before I was taking 3 weeks Long Service Leave as my mother was having a knee replacement and I was helping her and my 82 year old father out, so I question there motives.

Just found out my nephew has been in a bad motorcycle accident,has extensive facial injuries,fractured ribs sternum and a bleed on the brain.It's happened in another state so cannot go and see him straight away will see if we can get there next weekend maybe.

On the weight front - well don't ask lol! It's not good have put on weight and am disgusted in myself as my two year bandaversary is in a couple of weeks and back then I envisaged I would be under well and truly under the 100 kg mark.

As previously promised here is the shot taken of me before the wedding I spoke about in my previous post.I'm standing funny as I didn't ant a shot with the crutches.

Anyhow have to go, want to say some prayers for my nephew.

Saturday 28 August 2010


Am a little tired and sore after returning to work for 3 days, but on the whole everything went OK.

Today hubby and I are attending his best friends wedding (second marriage), it's in the city at The Rocks and we have booked a nice hotel across the road from the venue which is on the waterfront, so should be nice as I love the views over Sydney Harbour.

The bad part is I have to negotiate about 18 stairs and ring ahead so they can open the back door for me. If we did not do that I would have another 2 flights to contend with.

If I remember I will try and take some shots glammed up (might even show you my crutch - ha ha) and of the hotel and surrounds.

As we say here in Oz "avagoodweekend" folks.

Tuesday 24 August 2010


This is a long overdue post - sorry.

Did not set out to be away for so long, but I just got sick and tired of only having depressing news to report and also felt my readers felt like that as well.

I set a few things in motion and intended to come back with some positive posts when my plans were completed but it as not worked out the way I would have liked.

Anyways I'm here now and will summarise what has been going on over the last 3 months or so:-

My daughter had problems with living away from home, became quite depressed due to homesickness and had to be refereed to a Dr.

My daughter also fractured her foot on the last day of Uni, did her final performance assessment with a broken foot and spent a very boring 6 weeks at home in a aircast boot poor kid.

Had continued pain from my fall at work in January. Been having weekly massages for the muscle spasm and popping pain pills by the hundreds I suspect.

Reorganised our finances.

My beloved Aunty and Godmother died after a 4 week illness.

Pain from fall worsened over the last 4 weeks. Had to go and buy crutches as I could not put any weight on my right leg. Dr treating me for adducter strain or tear.

Due to pain have also been self medicating with my choice of meds - FOOD !Weight
got up to 118 kg again from 107 kg (Holy snapping arseholes !!! EEEK)

Finally my Immunologist ordered a Bone Scan I have two fractures in the pelvis - FUCK - no wonder I have been in agony and thinking of getting a new GP as I feel he is to complacent regarding me. This is the second thing this year he has misdiagnosed am over it.

Told today the fractures can take 2 - 12 months to heal, treatment is no weight bearing and rest - great.

Because this is Workers Comp and 7 mths after the injury I have had some pretty disappointing attitudes from people I work with. You would think after 12 years of service they would know my character and integrity by now and not judge me as a malingerer.

Mother is unwell , she needs a knee replacement, I told her she should get it done and I will take time off work to help her out, now with my problems this makes this hard.

Have put a check on the food, weight now 112.7kg.

Anyways that enough for today, my bum is sore from sitting, will catch up on all your blogs and promise not to be away for so long next time.

Wednesday 5 May 2010


My past experiences with the hospitalisation,dog being sick and SIL being killed has caught up with me.

The "black fog" has returned and I've lost the plot with life at the moment.

Have been medicating my self with food and have gained some of the weight I lost while sick.

Dog is still sick having cluster seizures and was hospitalised last week again, every time he goes in it's another $1.5K which is straining our already dismal finances and causing arguments with hubby.

I know if it continues will we have get my boy put down as his quality of life is suffering, the thought of it puts a knife through my heart as he is truly loved and a wonderful companion when everybody pisses off and leaves me at home alone.

There is a quote on the calender today by Elbert Hubbard

"Loneliness is to endure the presence of one who does not understand".

How true.

Thursday 8 April 2010


Where to start?

So much time has elapsed and so much crap has happened in between, you know the usual day to day crap, as they say "same shit different smell" - lol!

My SIL funeral was two weeks ago, nice service though very short only 15 mins and no wake after wards which I thought was a bit crappy as people had come interstate to pay their respects. I think wakes are good for the families to get together and reminisce the good times rather than focusing on the bad. Oh well that just my opinion.

Her hubby didn't make it out of hospital to attend the funeral, in fact he is still in battling a chest infection hampered by all his broken ribs - poor bugger, imagine how he feels as he was the driver as fault.

My daughter is home for the week on an Easter break, I want to go to Uni,I want to have a weeks break after only being there for a month - what a life. She is going well and enjoying it, not many written assessments as most are of a practical nature.

She has one coming up where is has to sing an Operatic Scale which is in Italian, she is a Alto Soprano, and very nervous about it as it's done in front of the whole class.

Went back to the Dr's yesterday with my abscess, it's healing slowing, about a week after I came home from hospital the thing burst, which I think was the best thing for it as it has progressed from then. So as of now I don't have to have the port removed which is good news for now. My weight was down on his scale by 4 kgs since my last visit in February so we were both happy with that,though I copped the usual lecture on doing some exercise- yadda yadda yadda! (Though I know he is right)

Anyhow better sign off it's 5am here as I woke at 3am and couldn't go back to sleep, so will try and lay down for an hour before the alarm goes off.

Friday 19 March 2010


Finally learnt how to transfers photos to the laptop so here a a few of my war wounds and my daughters accommodation

My arm and hand after the massacre I got trying to put a cannula in, he had three goes then had to get a Dr from ICU .These bruises are a week old so I'm sure you can imagine what they looked and felt like the day after.The understatement of the year was "just a scratch" as they jab you, it's sort of like "Yes, I'll love you in the morning" when you have a one night stand.(Not that I have ever had one - lol!)

My belly where the abscess was over the top of the lapband port, this was taken today and is 300% better than it was. Imagine something the size of a large lemon and sticking out about one third from the abdominal wall, combined with a red fiery rash from the cellulitis covering all of abdomen.

Below are some photos of where my daughter is staying, though small a bright airy room.

Oh, almost forgot weighed in today at 107.7 kgs so a loss of 2.3kg since last time.

Wednesday 17 March 2010



I had my abscess drained today by the biggest bloody needle I have ever seen, they removed about 10mls of pus and sent it away for testing. The pus was green which I thought was apt as today is St Patricks Day (sorry for my sick sense of humor)

Everything going well I will be discharged on Friday and then it's a waiting game for a couple of weeks as to whether this clears up. If it doesn't then it's the knife and having to have my lapband port removed until the infection clears up, then having another surgery to put the blasted thing back, so I hope this does not happen.

We received more bad news yesterday, my husbands sister and brother in law were involved in a head on collision. My SIL died instantly and my BIL is in ICU. My poor hubby is alone at home coping with this as I'm here and as you know my daughter moved out 3 weeks ago to start Uni.

He went to see his BIL today and was upset further to find his BIL in the same unit and the same bed as my brother was in 4 years ago when he was crushed at work and later died,it upset me as well, so I've had a fairly emotional day, worrying about everything.

As they say things happen in three's so I hope this is the end of the bad news and dramas.

There is good news with Oscar, he is recovering and will also be discharged on Friday(as long as he continues to be fit free) so I'm looking forward to giving him a big hug and a kiss from mum.

Monday 15 March 2010


Sorry this is a little late but the day has been filled with drama - coming from a few different areas.

First of all thank you to all my cyber friends who responded I liked all of the responses guessing I was in a far away (and more exciting place) than where I am now but the winner is Margaret who correctly guessed I'm in (insert expletive here) hospital again.

To cut a long story short I had a small pimple like thingo on my stomach,which in the space of 36 hours went from the size of a twenty cent piece to a full blown hot,burning rash over my whole abdomen (and remember my abdomen is so big it deserves it 's own postcode - lol!) turned out to be a bad case of cellutitis, which is a bacterial infection of the deepest layers of the skin.

To add to this drama the pimple was right over the top of my lap band port site, so I had a grapefruit size ball of infection sticking out my stomach about a third, to add to the rash on my stomach which honestly felt like someone had thrown acid over me, I could not even stand water from the shower on it.

I knew I was in trouble so took myself straight away to my immunologist who nearly fell off his chair and said you will not be going home and need to be admitted immediately for IV antibiotics - that was last Tuesday and I'm still here.

After establishing the lap band was not the cause of the infection I have been on heavy duty antibiotics as the swelling around the port, though reduced is still having fluid in it and is around 4cm x 4cm. I had it scanned today and pending a good result I was expecting to come home tomorrow.

Even though I have not received the final results, the initial signs are not good as it's not self contained and there is a small opening into the abdomen which could mean big trouble if the infection was to get inside the perineal cavity (where all your guts are). If that is he case then I'm in for a operation to drain and clean out the area and remove the port so the infection is not carried to my stomach - just great isn't it - I'm gutted (sorry for the pun)

To add to that my darling boy had severe seizures again today and had to be taken back sown to doggie ICU again, so I'm a bit of a mess at the moment,as I just can't lose him - not now anyway. SO please say a prayer for my baby and maybe a little one for me.

Saturday 13 March 2010


Guess where I am - answer tomorrow or Monday

Please leave your answer in the comments section (even if you dont usally comment)

Wednesday 3 March 2010


Hubby and I took our daughter to her new residence on Sunday for her Uni start last Monday.

I handled it better than I expected, though I did have a bad day a few days before when I thought the world was ending.

I'm happy with where she is staying, 5 mins from the Mall one way and 5 mins to the beach the other direction.It's such a pretty beachside city. I took some photo of her room and will add then when I work out how to transfer to my laptop via the memory card.

Work is crazy at the moment and to top it off I have been dumped with two major projects - great just what I need.

Weight wise is going well weighed in today at 110kg (finally) so another 1 kg lost.

Tuesday 23 February 2010


Hang on to your pantyhose girls and your jock straps boys.

After more than a year I have posted another update photo, I have been waiting until I got to the 110kg goal (which has not happened by the way) so I have succumbed to doing it at 111kg as I am sick of waiting.

So tell me what you think - I can see a difference in my face, my arms and legs are quite slim compared to my nemesis - THE STOMACH - crikey everyone knows I'm coming as my stomach enters the room 30 seconds before I do. Hell it's so big it needs it's own postcode always had such a nice flat stomach even when I was a little large as I carried all my weight in my hips and legs and it only started having a mind of it's own after I had my daughter..HERE

On other news I am trying to get my daughter organised for the big move on Sunday, we got the accommodation we applied for so am happy about the place. Now the worry has been switched to the money side of things, it's has cost me a fortune already, I really don't know how we are going to cope with it all,will maybe need to get the house re financed again so will have to sit down and do the numbers.

Oh and yesterday she got her drivers license so that's one thing less to worry about.

Monday 15 February 2010


Sorry it's been so long.

My life has been like a washing machine at the moment.

My daughter leaves for University (College) next week, we have decided she needs to relocate closer to the Uni due to her schedule and the fact it's a 3 hour round trip.

It's been very hard for me emotionally as my daughter is my only child and I don't feel like I've had her for that long - time goes so fast. Mothers never wish your children to grow up and move out sooner than they need to,it's heartbreaking - I certainly didn't expect to have this reaction.

Most of my time has been spent trying to find someone suitable for her to live and hopefully (fingers crossed) I will know today that she has been accepted to a Woman's Residential College that caters for Uni students. It is only 10 minutes from the Uni and one I feel happy about in relation to security and the fact her meals will be catered for.

My daughter is very mature 18 year old, but having such a lifestyle change is daunting for the most experienced, so like any mother I worry about her, particulary as I'm not there to see things first hand.

Aslo the worry about the financial side as my daughter does not have a part time job and will be intially living off a scholarship fund my husband and I set up several years ago, which will be lucky to last a year now we have to pay board at $270.00 per week. So it will be cutting down on our own expediture as there are also other things to finance like phone,internet costs and also the cost of running a car not to mention spending money.

As for my weight, well nothing happening here, gaining and losing the same .200 grams which in the big picture is ok considering the stress I'm under at the moment.

Tuesday 26 January 2010


Haven't been around much due to an accident I had at work over two weeks ago.

Fell really heavily on my left side after tripping over while lifting a box of copy paper.Knocked myself stupid and damaged my neck,shoulder,hip and foot. The major concerns at the moment are my hip and lower back and shoulder. I initially couldn't get up and was calling out for help for 10 minutes before dragging myself over to my desk and pulling the phone down to call someone.

I found out that two other men in the office heard me calling out and they failed to investigate anything. I think that was what really upset me, they are complete f*ckwits, and couldn't be bothered to get off their butts.

I felt so helpless not to mention feeling like a beached Beluga Whale.

Been having regular Physio which I think makes everything worse, and because it's Workers Comp I need approval from the insurance company before I have anything done.

Had the last 4 days off as it is a Public Holiday here today - Australia Day, commemorating the day the English arrived ( or to some factions - invaded) in 1788 to set up a Penal Colony.

This is the time of year when we have the usual debates and polls about becoming a Republic rather than a Monarchy and changing our national anthem - all a big yawn to me,as there is more important things to debate like crime,the health system and poverty to name a few.

Went back to the lap band doctor yesterday and he is pleased with my loss since my last visit and I don't have to go back now until August - sweet!

My weight has not altered over the past few weeks, probably due to being very sedate on the exercise front, so am glad there is no gain though.

Had quite a few people ask me have I lost weight and how good I look, which has been nice to hear, so I must pull my finger out and post some update photos,oh and I bought some new clobber yesterday,size 16 pants - boohoo, OK they are stretch but who cares!!!

Tuesday 5 January 2010


Hi All.

Hope you all had a great holiday season and New Year.

My break was quiet, but much better than last Xmas (if you remember I came out of hospital on Xmas Day last year after all my woes)

I seemed to just veg out this year and not do much of anything

We decided at the last minute to have a mini break and booked some accommodation in the city for 3 days. Got a great deal at the Marriott, which included breakfast,dinner and all you could drink at dinner for the three of us for $260.00 a night in an Executive Suite.

It was a pleasant sojourn,even if the weather was a bit crappy.

We saw the musical Wicked which was fantastic and had a great seafood lunch at Doyle's (one of the famous seafood Sydney restaurants) at the Rocks which was fan-diddly-tastic.

I will post some photos later on.

Back to my title - so what is the miracle?

The miracle is for the first time ever in history, I not only did not gain weight over Xmas but actually lost some - wow, wow and WOW!

I ate everything I wanted to turkey,ham,Plum Pudding even overindulged with the Lindt Chocolates (why do people give chocolates to you when they know you are trying to lose weight, and these are the same people that lecture you about weight being bad for your health!)

Anyways I'm diverging, today's weight is 111.8kg (245.96lbs) so a loss of .400kg not mind blowing but a victory nevertheless.

I love my band!!!!!!