GETTING A GRIP

I've given myself a couple of good hard bitch slaps in the attempt to knock some sense into my thick head.

I'm referring to my eating and attitude over the past week. I think I've finally realised I fall into a screaming heap trying to juggle full time work, a home and family while not feeling well. As soon as I start to feel unwell I medicate myself with food. I suppose I have really known this for a while, but the severity of it has hit home this week.

I have treated food as a friend and confidante,something to give me a quick fix of positive reinforcement when times are a bit tough when I feel I need something special to pick me back up again. I know I'm not alone in this , I think there are a lot of overweight people who experience the same thing. Finding a way to get out of the rut is the hardest.

ChrisH spoke of the lack of motivation on her blog last week, and I think I responded something like "if we all knew what the magic key was to motivation we would all make a fortune". If we follow the text books,goal setting is one thing that can help turn the tide. I've never been one to do this sort of this,as I want it now and not down the track.This is probably why I fail at a lot of things.

I've decided I'm going to give it a go,it's going to be basic to begin with and follow the golden rules of goal setting being

1. Have an Ultimate Long Term Goal

2. Have several mini goals to help with the motivation along the way

3. Make sure the goals are achievable.

I will put them in my side bar and add to them as I see the need.

Today has been a much better day and I already start to feel more in control of things.The band is still giving me good restriction - I now have to be extra careful with what I eat. Thick bread and rice are a definite no-no and some meats like pork are hard to swallow.My stomach get really sore now which is really a good thing as I know know when to stop shovelling the food in.

I'm keeping a food diary now and counting the calories again - 1200, I've also scheduled Mondays,Wednesdays,Fridays and Saturdays as gym days, this is something I really want to get into now. Watching The Biggest Loser again has brought home again I can do this.

I can do this - I CAN DO THIS!!