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Wednesday 7 March 2007

I'M ASHAMED - NOT

To all that left some comments thanks for playing the game. I'm the one on the far right, so for all that picked me well done. Oh and Mick, I have never been called cute so thanks for my little thrill ! lol. Chris H was correct in emphasing the word "few" in my description of the years. You know I'm a little embarrassed and a bit shocked when I actually counted back the number of years this picture was taken because inside I don't feel any different it's only the outside that shows the 20 year period. I chose this photo because it was one of the only ones I had in a group and it is such a happy photo with good memories.

Now I'll tell you why I titled this post as I did. I showed a colleague of mine who is female and older than me,this photo and why I was posting it. I had to tell her which one was me as she reckoned she couldn't pick me.When I pointed myself out she exclaimed in her shrill banshee voice "Oh, you ought to be ashamed of yourself." I let the first comment go, but she repeated it twice more.What she meant was "you should be ashamed of yourself for letting yourself go". Now because I've worked with this woman for 5 years and I know she always puts her mouth into gear before engaging her brain, I let her get away without showing my feelings. It sort of cut deep and of course I mulled over it for the next 24 hours.Now I will readily admit I know I DO NOT look like this now, as not only was it 20 years ago it was also about 45 kilos ago.Just to test her out I asked 3 other colleagues ,1 woman and 2 men and they picked me out straight away which of course made me feel better. So, am I ashamed of what I have become? - ashamed no - disappointed yes. Disappointed I have wasted so much time and disappointed at making detrimental choices.

ps. All I can say is this woman had better check her tampons carefully as I just might replace one with the self exploding type!!! he he he

8 comments:

Wanna_B_slim said...

Self exploding Tampons hey... hmmmm might just have to get me some of those...rofl..
What a mega bitch....
I am fairly lucky in that i have never had anyone say anything horrible to me about things like that...(not to my face anyway)
I could show you phots of me 10 years ago... 20 years ago... all varying weights.... but you still know its me...
My face hasnt changed... just gets a little rounder and en extra chin visits every now and then.. hehe...
Getting slimmer again now... hopefully for good this time.. i am older and wiser...;o)

White Rose Boy said...

Your story in some ways mirrors the period I put on weight. I didn't care just spent years eating and drinking what I please until one day it just clicked (reached 249lb, now 213lb) and I decided to fight back.
Pin this photo up as a motivation because you certainly was a stunner and I reckon your husband was lucky he met you before me (wink).

angelfish24 said...

Not a nice comment from the co-worker. Once, I did that and brought in a photo that was maybe 5 yrs prior but of course, I knocked myself about my wt before I showed the old photo. Everyone could tell it was me but it now I'm bigger so I don't know if they would recognize an old skinny photo of me but I think so....sometimes I get out those photos and get a little depressed cause feel I can't be that wt again but I know I can be closer to it than now. Yeah, and older, but I look at it this way, all my friends are getting older too so somehow that gives me comfort when another bday rolls around or I see new wrinkles in the mirror.
Hope your having a better day and a good week!!

Spider63 said...

The girl on the far right is easily the cutest one. You remind me of the girl from the Dirty Dancing movie!

Chris H said...

I've only got one thing to say about your work colleague .... she's a friggin bitch and I bet she's butt ugly, so there!

CactusFreek said...

Gee i take my hat off to you girlfreind!!
There's no way i could have kept my mouth shut! Good on you for dealing with the mature way :o)

CactusFreek said...

I might steal the idea of posting an old pic too :o)

Livy said...

You know what? What that comment is about as insulting as you can get! This woman has not just a problem with foot in mouth syndrome, and need so learn some serious tact and diplomacy!
Telling you that you need to be ashamed???WTF? Are you kidding me?? Shame would have to be one of the worst possible, self defeating, detrimental words in the english language. Never be ASAHMED of yourself. Learn from past inexperience yes, but that's it. We all do the best we can with the knowledge we have at the time, she had no right to say that, and you know what? I would have told her that, I would have said "I beg your pardon?? How dare you say that to me! Just who do you think you are??". Don't let these insulting people get away with it.
I am about to do a post of this very topic, insulting things people say.