Sunday 25 March 2007


Thank you all for your kind comments on my pictures. My only fear now is posting me as I am now,morbidly obese and a face ravaged by 10 years of cortisone use.I will soon though post a recent photo when I actually find one of me at my biggest 141kg.

I don't live in the past, I have a few regrets, but I look back at them to remind me I don't want to go there again.

Spider and Cactus, sorry I don't think I look like anyone, so don't know who you mean. I always thought my mother looked like Maureen O'Hara when she was younger and my Dad had a Clark Gable look about him (he has big ears too).I'll post a photo of them this week as a commemoration to their birthdays this month.

Also, Spider, I was a very alive and happy person once,was popular and had a lot of good friends.I'm trying to find that person again as she got lost and forgotten about over the past 10-12 years. She's trying to claw her way out of the black pit she'd fallen into. She's making some progress but has the odd stumble along the way.

My food this week has also had the odd stumble - I've been good for 70% of the week,there is some consolation the scales have not moved up and not moved down.This Tuesday is my mums birthday, we are going to a "all you can eat" buffet.The food there is the best buffet food I have ever had (which was last Tuesday for a co-workers farewell) The quantity thing is not the problem for me it's the quality.I know I will have the fried spring rolls, the potato bake, and honeyed chicken, oh and some pork crackling. And of course I must have some birthday cake.Then it's game on again until Easter which is only a week and a half away. Egad! I am not looking forward to Easter - I'm not a chocoholic but this year my mouth salivates like Pavlov's dog at the mere thought of all the Easter eggs I see and smell - so am really worried how I'm going to go.

This morning I went to Church with my daughter. I havn't been in such along time and was quite anxious about going.There is a new Minister now and the service was different from the previous Minister who was ultra conservative. I actually quite enjoyed it. The last song we sang was called "New Song in My Heart" it struck chord with me and as I left I felt more uplifted and free of spirit. I'd like to go back next week and see if it happens again. Anyhow I'm off to hit the sack as work again tomorrow - Yuk!


Wanna_B_slim said...

We only have one all you can eat place here in town.. and that is quite expensive so I dont go there..and it is just as well.
The food you are describing sounds delish... Enjoy it.
Cant wait to see the now pics of you...
It is always good to see who is sittin on the computer posting on the blogs.

Hope work is kind to you this week..
Hugs Nannette

White Rose Boy said...

I find this post just so honest about yourself, yeh sure those pictures tell me you were a very attractive lady.
But I think the important thing is that you recognise the problem a lot of us have, that we let ourselves go. One of the things many of us bloggers have in common is we are trying to do something about it but enjoy life at the same time. Thats why it is still important to have a reward meal occasionally, so nothing wrong going to the Buffet as a one off, just enjoy it then back on track.
You have done well getting from 141kg to 121kg but you are been honest with yourself admitting you have a bit further to go before you are happy with yourself.
You are winning this battle with the weight and like all your blog friends I aim to keep encouraging you.

angelfish24 said...

Nice pictures, you posted from your past. You are one gorgeous lady!
Maybe, I'll evenually post some old pics. I mean, i look at them from time to time. Sometimes, it's motivating for me to lose weight and other times it's depressing as I don't feel I could look like that again. I know I can get close, but of course I'm not getting any younger.
Post some current pics if you are comfortable. I have in the past but I need to link them on the side bar somehow and still learning about how to do that.
I hope you have a good week!

Chris H said...

Just remember one thing.... NO ONE FORCE FEEDS AND ADULT.. IF IT'S IN YOUR MOUTH, YOU PUT IT THERE! Be strong, resist some of the evil stuff, or just have a tiny bit... if you are really serious about losing your weight you can and will do it.